Sorry i have been away for a very long time now.
My home life situation has changed ALOT.
What should i start with? The bad or the very bad-bad-sad part?

Well here is for bad-my computer has died and i have lost all my file. That means my art and everything else i was keeping on the computer is gone for good. Good buy 8 pieces of half finished art works that i was about to put online.

Here is the bad-bad news. My long lost run away sister (don't ask unless you REALLY want to know the drama behind this..) finally popped back up in my life suddenly after 2 yeas of her being missing through a bright blue letter addressed to me that i found in my room. What it said in cheerfully cute lettering was that "It's a boy! You are invited to the Baby Shower!!!".....my sis is not married nor did i even know she was prego in the 1st placed....i am not sure i am angry, happy, sad, disappointed...or anything i am lost. Really what should i be feeling?

This is the bad-bad-sad news. My childhood friend Amanda Stevenson has just passed away last Friday. I couldn't handle it at all, i cried so much and then i couldn't even make it to her memorial service. I have never lost anyone close to me before, this is the 1st time. I have never felt this vulnerable before.

Yeah i finally understand what that expression "Life hits you hard" until now..it was like an explosion of sad stuff blowing up in my face!
But like always i shall prevail!!! I was sad about my computer but hey now i have a bran-spanking new one! I still don't know how to work it though..eheheheh...
And about my sis..well i am still very hurt by what she did to me and my family but if she is finally able to reach out to me then i should try for her right? And maybe with this new innocent baby boy we will be able to patch things up and make and even stronger happier bigger family.
And to my dear friend passing on...since i wasn't able to go to her memorial service i had one in my room. Yeah i cried alot but i also laughed soooo much! I mean now i can't stop thinking about her and tell all my new friends about her and the ridiculously funny things we did together!!! I really understand what they mean when they say that "you'll be in my heart" because she is!! She really is, and she stills makes me laugh!!!

HAHAHAHAHA i really needed to get this off my chest like you have NO idea! hahhaha i am laughing because i am crying right now! What a relief!
So because of all these events i have been distracted from my mission! Whats my mission? To spread love and joy through out the land! Heehee yeah that and to complete my dress that i designed and right now in the making of! Yeah i have been slacking from my work and the deadline for sending it in for the scholarship competition is soon at hand!
I need your guys support to get me through this!!! I need you guys to get me pumped so i can complete this super fast!!!
Yeah i missed you guys soooo much! I think DA beats facebook which i have now just gotten...i am sooo bad with it that i have no idea how to use it! so find me if you can!!!

HAHHAHAHA LOVE YOU ALL I FEEL GREAT NOW!!
STAY FOREVER GOLDEN!!!